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I am from a mind controlled family. My fathers contacts with Lawrence Livermore Labs, and Lockheed Missiles and Space, may have jeopardized us all. I first noticed something amiss when it appeared that my brothers roommates were psychologically abusing him in his Berkeley communal home. Another brother spent some time in a commune in Oregon, where he was physically and mentally abused, and regularly hypnotized by the leader.
I ended up in a boarding house in San Francisco, which could have been an ex-safe house, with several other renters. My food began to give me terrible indigestion, or keep me awake at nights, due to it being laced with drugs. People around me began to talk about private things that I had never told anyone. I began to believe that there was a group of sadistic telepaths that was harassing me. Sometimes there were strangers peering in the backyard window at night. One day while cutting a college class, I caught an FBI agent sneaking around inside the house. (The front door was locked.) My friends and family thought I was very weird to mention any of this. I remember the Jim Jones bus that used to park outside the University. They offered students a free dinner if we came to listen to their indoctrination lecture. I refused to go with them because they wouldn’t tell me anything about themselves, before the lecture.
The managers of the boarding house began to interview me, on several occasions, about my personal life. They introduced me to cocaine, to get me to talk more, and always took me to a special room to socialize. I began to suspect that I was being tape recorded, and the conversation would always turn back to me if I changed the subject. I trustingly told them many secrets about myself, including a desire to be as strong as a biker, believing I could rid myself of my tormentors that way. I didn’t realize they were establishing a baseline psychological profile to enable them to control my mind. Eventually they mentioned a nasty drug that would keep you up all night. Sure enough, that’s what they gave me. After severing that relationship, I found that the handlers increased their attacks, using grocery clerks to harass me when I bought drugged food and cigarettes. Bank clerks harassed me when I cashed checks, even though I had an account there. University projects and my workplace were sabotaged. They unsuccessfully tried to manipulate my love life several times. I finally decided to move away.
I ended up on the road with my cat for a year, wandering the West. The car was bugged, because they always found me no matter what dirt road I tried to camp on. Homelessness had the desired shock value. I had an advantage over most of the other people like me, since I was a college graduate, however, I still had to learn to be street smart. They still drugged my food and manipulated any part time jobs I managed to find. The thought occurred to me that they were hypnotizing me to go to certain markets and select certain food, or to look for work in certain towns. I often went without food for several days, due to poverty. My compromised diet caused physical and mental torture that is part of the mind control program. The cramped quarters of the car and living outdoors caused other discomforts. Once, I spent a week in the car at -20 F. At least I was thankful to have a car. Often I was treated as an untouchable outcast, but also experienced occasional compassion. Through it all, the handlers seemed to be trying to give me military survival training, as well as set me up to fight back at targets they selected. These of course were the markets or employers that they would get to harass or drug me. I fought against the Vietnam War, and blocked their attempts to draft me. Would changing a Pacifist Biologist into a violent soldier/street person be successful mind control? The mind control handlers were able to get a conscientious objector to hunt, travel armed, and sabotage businesses, but they were unsuccessful in getting me to mindlessly turn violent. When travel was no longer conducive to their plans, they fatally sabotaged my car engine.
What followed was several years of them trying to get me to be more violent, more hypnotically directed at selected targets, and more receptive to their selected mates, who would then carry out some of the handlers chores. They tried to get me to respond to their violence in a felonious way that would get me sent to prison, where I would no doubt receive forced training in criminal/underworld techniques. CIA documents mention the agency’s arrangements with prisons and the justice system, where they already have mind control programs set up inside. Their attempts to imprison me failed, as were their attempts to get me to be a gladiator, a biker, an alcoholic, or a drug addict. Their physical, psycho-logical, and spiritual abuse did not make me self-abusive.
When I was twelve, I had a vision that showed where my life would go. Ever since, I have had a close relationship with Spirituality. The guides that showed me my life path have continued to support and guide me. This has kept me going many times. I am fascinated by Jane Roberts Seth material, Gordon Scallions predictions, and the Revelations of Paul Solomon. Although the Sadists have discouraged religion (it usurps their "authority") and defiled my sacraments, they are hopelessly inadequate as a substitute. Their delusions of being a higher authority are only outdone by their fantasies that they will get away with it. Fascism will fail again, as it has before. Good will conquer evil.
The recent death notice of an expert in mind control, Stanley Gottlieb, quoted him as saying three things are most important to mind control: debility, dependency, and dread. An old college course and twenty three years of being aware of the Sadists attacks, has led me to some conclusions about resistance:
1. Question Authority (Disobey orders)
All societies need rules, but you should question whether the rules are fair, applied equally to all people, or necessary. Everyday we are bombarded by jerks suggesting we buy this, dress like that, or act like this. When they start telling you how to think, who to vote for, and to support war against whoever they choose, you need to question authority.
2. Think for yourself
Analyze events for yourself, don’t just swallow what government or the media shoves down your throat. Question the origin of the information. Determine the motivation of those revealing information. Who stands to gain the most from the information? Research information yourself.
3. Keep your personal life private.
Everyone shares the personal side of themselves. Become aware of how that information can travel beyond the person or agency that you reveal it to. Our privacy is constantly being eroded by the government, banks, credit agencies, medical institutions, and corporate data banks.
4. Allow spirituality to determine your religion, not the opposite.
Question dogma. Seek ways to unite people, not divide them.
5. Determine your own emotional responses.
Don’t let others tell you how to feel. Ignore those who evoke or provoke your emotions.
6. Know your rights and defend them.
Keep informed, act intelligently.
7. Demonstrate control over your own life.
Make your own choices, and don’t let anyone take your right to choose away.
8. Don’t give up, no matter what.
Those who consistently survive against the odds, are those who don’t quit. Seek out others in similar circumstances.
9. Retain a sense of humor.
Laughter reduces stress. Those who can laugh at themselves are healthier.
These ideas may not be of much comfort to those who are regularly zapped, drugged, or controlled. However, it is my belief that the population at large is the inevitable target. All of us who watch TV, listen to radio, or read the newspaper, are being hypnotized and manipulated. Therefore, all need to be aware of how information is being suppressed, selected, or changed. Luckily, brainwashing and conditioning become less effective with time. Also, there is no way that they can control us all of the time, or all of the people, they just want you to think they can.
All things eventually change, so try to imagine a world where individuality, free will, caring, and loving, are found everywhere.
The short form of my story is about 23 years of drugging and hypnotic
mind
control in California. I am not a deprogrammer, but have included a few basic
anti-mind control guidelines. The full story will be available soon for a fee,
by contacting Aresister@aol.com.
Thanks, Spence Everson
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