MCF Victim: Jon Bob Elder

jonbobelder@hotmail.com

Introduction:

As far as I can ascertain, I have experienced this phenomenon my entire memorable life. To be sure, it hasn't been constant, and recently has become more and more frequent and each occurance has lasted longer. Until the night of Friday, September 6, 2002, I had occasionally experienced things that seemed extreme or were inexplicable in the ordinary sense, but I just ignored them or tried to rationalize them away as something else simple and ordinary (like the normal "bad brakes" of life, or, maybe my body over-reacted to some medication I was taking, etc.). By on and since this night, I have been keenly aware that something of a mind control nature is happening to me. However, I am still trying to figure out how and why this is being done to me and how, if any way exists, I could get it to stop. I have turned to my faith and I have found some passages in the Bible that may shed some light on this phenomenon and its sources. But I still often feel hopeless sometimes because it seems this thing is going to be with me for the rest of my life.

Background:

Male, married, early 30s, Latino, LDS, in Midwestern US. My name (of course) is a pseudonym and I would like to keep it that way.

Symptoms:

1. Sleeping Symptoms:

   1. Strange dreams in which I am keenly aware that my surroundings and my actions, or even my ability to act (speak, move, see, hear, touch, etc.), within them is being controled by something outside of me.

   2. Strange sensations like various internal and external parts of my body are being touched while I am sleeping or attempting to sleep, frequently these sensations are sexual in nature.

   3. Voices whispering or "silent speaking" into my head (usually female, but there are some males, particularly the more controling ones seem to be male) while I am asleep, trying to sleep, or feeling sleepy.

   4. Occasionally, the feeling like my breathing has stopped, and once or twice I felt the sensation of my heart being kept from beating as if a fist were closing over it; On two nights I can recall, I had the sensation that the entire inner workings of my body were being controled by something outside of me, soon into both occurances I began to hear physical voices talking to each other about my emotions (naturally, mostly fearful ones) and on the second occation, they talked extensively about by biological functions (blood pressure, pulse, etc.)

   5. Urination more frequent during the night than it used to be.

   6. Frequent dreams about flowing water, liquid, or the act of urinating along with the feeling that someone is trying to get me to urinate in bed (they have yet to succeed, though).

   
   
2. Bodily Symptoms While Fully Awake:

   1. Voices whispering, talking, or "silent speaking" into my head various things (again usually female, but there have been some male, especially the ones that seem to be in control), sometimes they speak to me, sometimes to each other, but often I really don't know whom they are speaking to Pain in my stomach area, perhaps my kidneys, it comes and goes and is more painful some times than at other times.

   2. What I call "invisible sex sessions" (more later).

   3. For about a week in September 2002 following the September 6th attack and occationally thereafter, an unaccountable drain of energy, like I haven't had enough sleep or I'd been working too hard, when neither is the case, often accompanied by the inability to concentrate; The continuous feeling like I am being watched everywhere I go, day and night.

   
   
3. External Symptoms:

   1. There was a time in my childhood during which I didn't talk to anyone (I was about 4), in fact my parents thought that I was autistic, and then one day when I was 5, I began talking very well; Also ever since my early childhood, I recall the feeling like I was on a television show, the closest thing I can point to that is similar is like being on "the Osbornes," but it didn't bother me then and as I grew up the feeling faded, but it has recently returned.

   2. I have been able to get onto the Dean's List in one college that I attended, but I could not even make minimal satifactory progress when I transferred to another college (although the new college is considered "tougher" than the first, it is clear to me that it was more than the competitiveness of both schools that is the difference).

   3. A certain girl in high school, whom I had never previously met, began calling me crazy every time she saw me, she would shout it, "He's CRAZY!!!" (I had sometimes done and said unusual things in my teenage days, but nothing to make someone state this emphatically that I'm off my rocker).

   4. I have had quite a few jobs in which I felt I was unnecessarily given an emotional strain that wasn't or didn't have to be part of the job, often I would end up quitting these jobs, but in my last job in which I refused to quit even under extreme circumstances I was let go for reasons so flimsy that I know they were lies.

   5. most (if not all) of our direct neighbors (next door, directly across the hall, right above and below, directly across from us in the next building) are particularly fond of making loud noises at night or when we are trying to sleep during the day; Our car broke down in a very weird way that appears to be the result of sabotage; I grew plants (flowers, herbs, fruits, and vegetables) from seeds on my balcony, I took very good care of them and, although most of these grew rather large, none but two gave fruit (none of the flowers bloomed) and all of them eventually died, most of them for unknown reasons.

   6. I and my wife have received a number of offensive emails that only someone who knew us could have sent, one of these emails was sent to my wife and claimed to be from me, but on all of these emails, the originating address was clearly forged, neither of us know of anyone who would be so mad at us as to send us this kind of email.

   7. On many occasions people I didn't know, or that I was bearly acquainted with would look in my direction and call out an expletive, these incidents are always when I am walking on my way somewhere and occur in public in front of a bunch of people.

   8. Although my neighbors used to greet me, for some inexplicable reason they no longer evne look at me when I pass by; I frequently can't connect to the internet with my modem for some unknown reason, I called the internet provider and they can't find any problem, I have tried different internet providers, and I have had a phone line repairer come by to check my line three times and on all three times, they claim to have found a problem and claim to have repaired it, but after the repairer leaves, I am unable to connect to the internet again.

   9. When I put my Media Player on shuffle, sometimes certain songs are played at such eerie times, as if they are being used to send "messages" to me.

   10. Sometimes I hear noises in our apartment as if people are moving within it, but I don't see anyone there, a few times a have seen short shapes (about 3 or 4 feet high) in the dark made up of horizontal lines, they seem to be triangular with the point on the bottom, once or twice I have seen these shapes float and even fly around the apartment.

Phrases used by voices (in no particular order):

• "Oh, he LOVES it!" (usually after a pleasurable "invisible sex" session)

• "We're going to kill you." (on a bus home from work), "See, he trusts me." (male voice during an "invisible sex" session)

• "Casey (KC?) wants to brainwash him!" (one night during the week long energy-drain period in September 2002)

• "That's it, you're finished!" (during an "invisble sex" session when I fell asleep in the middle of it; I heard this remark while feeling my heart being crushed)

• "Well, what did you expect was going to happen?!" (at work the day after one night mind control experience after which I became very irate)

• "My name is Betsy ... my last name? It's Mulligan ... I'm 31 and married ... Wanna get high?" (female voice apparrantly trying to talk to me the week following the energy-drain week of September 2002; by the way an "invisible sex" session followed the "Wanna get high" question)

• "You ABUSED him!!!" (same female voice [I think] a few days after the "Wanna get high" thing, as if arguing with someone else)

• "Stupid," "Ignorant," "Retard," "Idiot," "A**hole," and other such expletives and epithets.

• "LIAR!" (in the middle of the night while I was in a deep sleep; it woke me right up)

• "What is his problem?!"

• "What planet is he from?!"

• "He's SOOOO SCARED!!!" said in a teasing facicious tone

• "That must feel REALLY good!" (also during an "invisble sex" session)

• "He knows what we are doing to him." (soon after I began viewing and reading this site)

• "He has no idea what is going on ... [but] I'm very impressed with how much he does know" (more recently)

• "Oh! So beautiful! Look at those stomach muscles!" (during a "session")

• "Watch what I do to him," "Let me show you something," and other such phases that occur just before an attack

• "You better watch that mouth of yours" (after I was cussing in the direction of my computer many times because it wouldn't connect to the internet)

• "There, that's more like it." (The day after I refused to have any more "sessions" and they "persuded" me by "touching" me in my sleep, I didn't fall for it though because my wife woke up just then and interrupted them)

• My first true conversation:  A male voice said, "I love you ... I really love you."  I silently responded, "What?! How can you love me? I don't even know who you are! Who are you?!"  The voice replied, "I am the devil's advocate."  The conversation ended when I answered back with, "I bet you are!"

• "We won!"  "Yes!" (followed by laughter) -- more recently in February 2003 since I first posted my account on MCF.

• "We're going to kill you!"  "We need to kill him."  "How can we kill him?" -- also since posting on MCF.

and of course there are many, many others.

Names of Perps (what they call each other):

Casey (KC?), Betsy, Jesse, and more. (Notice how they rhyme, hmm...)

"Invisible Sex" Sessions:

They happen while I am at home asleep, trying to sleep, or fully awake and (often) in bed. I feel sensations like someone is touching me internally and externally in my stomach, thighs, and my sexual regions, as well as the muscles inside these parts, these muscles are either (according to which one is appropriate to the particular muscle) contracted and then released or they are moved around in a circular motion. By the way, I confess that I usually find these pleasurable except a few times when voices would say certain cruel sounding things while this was going on, when the pains in my stomach would increase (which they usually do just before and during these sessions), when I was just trying to sleep, when I have felt like (especially litely) like I am cheating on my wife by participating in these sessions. It seems like they are trying to get something from me by doing this to me. In fact one time I heard, "Can't you see? They are giving you something to do while they are taking stuff from you." These sessions by themselves make me feel extremely aroused, but they do not fully satify me. In almost all cases, these sessions end with me masturbating myself to orgasm. They seem to be capable of arousing me, and even of making my masturbation much more pleasuable than it usually is, but they are not able to satify me or bring me to orgasm with out me getting involved and masturbating. Before, during, and after this process, I can hear voices refer to this process as "eating," "getting high," "popping him," or something else that makes me think that whatever they are doing, while it may feel very good, is actually hurting me in the long run and they either don't care, or that is exactly what they want. It is very hard to stop these because they usually get me when I am asleep or trying to sleep, but because I have to touch myself for them to continue, it is possible. But I have yet to get them to cease permanently.

Name-calling:

I have on many occasions had people I either didn't know or that I hardly knew (that as far as I recall, I didn't treat badly) call me names as I passed by them. On the one occassion, two females where walking in one direction across a street when I was walking in the other and one of the females shouted out an expletive in my direction at the top of her lungs so loud that it shocked me.

February 2003 Update:

Since I posted this account at the beginning of this month, I noticed that I can connect to the Internet and stay connected without any problems, there have been more verbal threats on my life as well as many proclamations of having "won" something or having defeated me somehow and more strenuous attempts to begin "invisible sex" session even though I keep refusing or stopping them.  I feel that somehow a corner has turned, or, that a wrinkle has developed in their plans on what to do with me since my account was posted on MCF.  I have also received an odd email that told me some things that I have not mentioned in my account that match what has happened to me.  However, it also mentioned things I find impossible to believe (and also very illogical) and told me to keep its contents completely secret.

I will keep posting updates as events and time allow.

**To be continued at a later date**

Received 2-2-2003
up dated 2-18-2003