Carole Sterling
Letter to MCF
Letter to the Star Beacon
List of Symptoms
Outcome of Symptoms
Also see Carole Sterling's Apparent Suicide
Carole Sterling
Washington, D.C.
July 10, 1997
Mr. Ed Light
Dear Ed,
I am a victim of mind control and have been tortured as of December 1995.
Please find enclosed a copy of what was published in the Star Beacon, in
October 1996, with its two addendums.
I spoke to Cheryl Welsh who strongly advised me to get your Mind Control
on the Web Site package. Please find enclosed my check for $5.
I certainly look forward to receiving it from you. If you haue any other
information that you recommend, please do not hesitate to let me know.
Sincerely,
Carole
Contents
[Two notes from Carole Sterling's letter are in brackets.]
The Star Beacon
October 1996, Page 2
Incident at Mesquite, Nevada conference
[The 5th International UFO Congress]
Dear Star Beacon,
I am writing about something that happened to me which goes back to December
1995.
I went to a conference in Nevada. The day following the last night at the
conference, I noticed that I had an injection mark on the base of my spine
which was sore. Then the nightmare started three days after my return to
Washington, D.C. An irregular pulsing and humming sound - which at first
seemed impossible to tell what direction it came from - seemed louder when
I was lying down, was crushing me with pain. The oppression was unbearable;
shockwaves, like a beating, were particularly painful in the head and in
the areas where I had scars or surgery. It reverberated in those areas as
well as in the area just behind the ears (the mastoid bone area, filled with
air pockets).
It totally scrambled my brain, leaving me unable to think properly, simply
functioning on sheer shock and horror, with total incomprehension of what
was going, on. It actually was debilitating. The room felt like a torture
chamber.
This forced me out of my home. I desperately went to my relatives' home five
blocks away. This began in their home, too. As I lay down trying to sleep,
I heard two sharp cracking sounds on the television set and the same thing
started again. This time I was better able to notice that whatever this was
it was primarily directed to the left side of my head. The effects were so
intense. My flesh felt as if it were being kneaded like dough; the glands
under my chin were excruciatingly painful, as was the area next to the knees
where I had had scars.
When I moved to the other room this started again after a few minutes; the
two. cracking pops on the television glass, followed by the excruciating
pain. As I said, this seemed to be zeroing in on the left side of my head.
What I did - maybe too late - was shield my head as best I could with aluminum
wrap, which I could hear cracking like popcorn in a microwave.
The intensity of this horrifying experience lasted for three days. It followed
me like radar, zeroing in on me, to two other friends' homes a few miles
away, where I had gone to because I was trying to get away to avoid the pain.
Since then, I have felt extremely ill, with recurring excruciating symptoms
every day. [However, for one day only, on May 29, 96, I was back to my normal
self.] The left part of my brain is where these symptoms seem to be localized.
However, nothing has shown up on an MRI or EEG. I believe that the technology
used, be it some type of a frequency assault, some sort of directed energy,
in addition to whatever was injected in me, has caused damage to my brain
which feels irreversible because I have been living with this debilitating
and excruciating pain for the last eight months so far. The pain, which feels
like an extremely sharp sciatic pain localized in the left side of the brain,
is accompanied by stupor, memory loss. My brain feels scrambled, at times
far worse than at other times. The only improvement is that my hands, which
were quite numb and stiff, are back to normal as of two weeks ago.
Needless to say, this is something I no longer discuss with some family members
or doctors, as they think it is so far-fetched, they just do not believe
me. Only very few people do I discuss this with. Writing this has been an
effort of sheer will, at a time - usually the early hours of the day - when
the symptoms are not as severe. I am trying to get better physically and
get rid of the pain, hoping that somewhere there are individuals who are
familiar with this kind of technology and can help me.
Carole Sterling
Editor's Note: Direct correspondence to Carole to The Star Beacon, P.O. Box
117, Paonia, CO 81428-0117, and I will forward mail to her.
[Carole Sterling is deceased, a possible suicide.]
Contents
Carole Sterling
July, 1997
Addendum to. the Star Beacon letter published in October 1996, page 2
-
Memory loss, both short term and long term
-
Severe disorientation
-
Inability to focus
-
Dyslexia in execution of arm movements (on and off)
-
Crawling bug sensation in the left inner ear (on and off)
-
Inability to drive
-
State of stupor (on and off)
-
Feel zombified (most of the time)
-
Cooking sensations from inside out of the body (on and off)
-
Biorythms disruption
-
Circadian rythms disruption
-
Feel robbed of energy
-
Major sleep disturbances (I used to sleep soundly for 8 hours, very peacefully
and comfortably). Wake up many times in the night. At times, am woken up
and feel torture and vibration in the brain, unable to go back to sleep
-
Pleasure centers have been turned into major pain
-
Head feels often quite metallic on the left side mostly Occasional stuttering
-
Twitch on the left side of my mouth (comes on and off)
-
Sexual centers have been atrophied
-
Nervous twitch in my throat (on and off)
-
Handwriting is distorted (at times more severe than at other times)
-
Terrible body odor (at times far worse than at other times)
-
Weight gain (over 20 lbs in no time. My weight always remained steady before)
-
Feel like I have implants inside my brain (seem to flare on and off)
-
Feel like I have implants on the left side of my back (upper back) as well
as the upper parts of my spine (seem to flare up on and off)
-
The injection mark at the base of my spine pulsates on and off at different
times
-
Feel like implants under the chin (all the way up to both ears)
-
Before March, 1997, could not watch any TV
-
Before March, 1997, could baely read and comprehend what I was reading
-
Different parts of my brain are shut off (on and off)
-
At times I feel totally. drugged up
-
I have been driven (not by choice) to drinking. I was a non drinker and had
no desires to drink until the beginning of January 1996
-
At times I have felt like a tuning fork, with strange and horribly painful
electrical sensations throughout my nervous system, with a vibration running
down my body from the crown of my head
-
I am very scattered brain
-
Sciatic nerve pain on the left side of my brain
-
Horrible visions of the most sadistic nature were bombarded to me, mainly
to the frontal lobe area (pornography, mutilations, concentration camps,
barbaric acts, etc.) during the first three months
-
My dreams have totally changed and I often have many nightmares in the nature
of pornography
-
Crawling bugs sensation in the head (happened in February 1996)
-
Am like an Alzheimer patient (at times far worse than at other times).
-
Lost two pairs of glasses in December 1995, can't find my clothes, or my
toothbrush, or other articles
-
Can barely cook (have burned myself several times)
-
Have often missed my mouth while eating and stain very often my clothes
-
Many spelling errors and inability to even write a simple letter (on and
off)
-
My voice changes tonality on and off
Contents
Carole Sterling
July, 1997
Addendum to the Star Beacon letter published in October 1996, page 2
Give me liberty or give me death!
-
I have been robbed of my free will
-
I cannot work
-
I cannot simply change location. This has followed me to (and been with me)
outside Washington D.C., both in the United States and outside the country
-
The volume of torture and pain was increased tenfold when I went to Wyoming,
in the company of many caring friends
-
I went to stay with relatives and my loving nephews outside the USA
-
Stepping into a Faraday cage did absolutely nothing
-
Going down into a soda ash mine in the West did not help
-
Nothing has helped, be it prayers, meditation, positive thinking (hardly
possible in light of the state I am in and have been reduced to), going to
see a psychic surgeon, Shoshonee indians healing ceremony, sweat lodge,
acupuncture, massage therapy, magnet therapy, loving human contact, Silva
method, physical exercice (no response, no release of endorphins in my system)
-
This feels state of the art high technology
-
Feels at times electronical
-
I am a victim of brain to computer satellite interface
-
I am a victim of mind control
-
This has robbed me of joy, happiness, well being, hope and a future guided
by my own free will
-
The pain at times, as well as the sense of debilitation, is so great, I am
made to feel total despair
-
Were it not for the support of my relatives in D.C. (unfortunately do not
believe me, and have spent thousands of dollars taking me to different
psychiatrists, who have pumped me with prolyxin, risperdal, cogentin, tegretol,
orap, zyprexa, prozac, etc., as well as pain killers. Nothing works. They
do not seem to penetrate the brain barrier) I would be locked up in a mental
ward or a bag lady
-
Maintaining my cool, calm composure is extremely difficult, I often snap
-
I snap very easily and become very angry when the torture intensifies
-
Because I felt great and back to my normal self for only one day so far on
May 29, 1996, I know that this can be literally switched off any time
-
Unfortunately, allowing me to see how.good it felt to be clear for only one
day to then start the torture again is only an example of the evil and sadistic
behavior of those who are at the control terminal
-
I am simply reduced to a puppet on a string
-
My heart goes out to all the other victims of such atrocity
-
I am grateful to have been able to slowly network with other victims and
ex- government, military men, and writers, researchers who know that this
has been going on.
-
The question victims all ask is why me, why us
Contents