if god exsisted he would have had the mercy to never have let me been born

im fucked up somehow and it kills me everyday in my head i cant stop thnking all the time about nothing important just hard things.

i smoke pot hourly everyday all day even at school

the only thing that i came close to loving is faded and dieing.

i have only prayed for two things death and for a soul thats no longer worth anything to me even after i found it.

i hate myself so much

like a baby who is crying for no reason other than that he is a baby, and unaware of greater common sense, you may just need to wipe the tears from your eyes, look up, and see that there's really nothing to worry about.

if an infant stubs his toe, and cries a lot, good parents will rush to console him, sharing his pain in order to alleviate it.

if that same infant cries incessantly because he wants to play with the sharp fork and knife used to feed him, these same parents will get annoyed and wait patiently for the child to realize his tears are a waste of time, in order for all to smile again.

[This message has been edited by Eil (edited 04-07-2004).]

Even though I'm an atheist, that was a very good reply Eil. A lot of people do consider their lives to be horrible, without realizing there aren't any problems that can't be solved quickly.

So, you're a pothead and you lost what you love? Pot's only psychologically addictive (worse than physical addiction for many people), so just remove it from your life if it's that much of a problem for you. Also, find something else to love...love is easy to come by if it's all you're looking for, chances are that you're looking for too many things attached to love that you're passing by a lot of oppurtunities that would bring you great joy.