HellzShellz
2006-09-03, 01:05
What were you running after, when you turned the corner, and ran into God?
I wouldn't ask a question that I, personally, wouldn't answer. I was running after love. I found a few cheap imitations, but it was an empty cistern. Thus, my thirst was never fully satisfied, until I ran into God. The irony is, I turned away from love (God is love), when I found what I thought love was. I knew I had to, but it wasn't as easy to find my way back, as it was to turn away. Rather the factor had been pride, unbelief, or rebellion. When you think you're walking in the light, and you're really in darkness, it's hard to be shown the light, because you think you're already right.
I was like Judas. How? Judas knew that Christ was the Son of God. How could he not have known? He was there though-out Christ's ministry. He seen Him raise the dead to life. He seen Him lay hands on the sick, and the sick recover. HE KNEW, in His head, but had he had the SAME CONVICTION in his heart, HE WOULD HAVE NEVER SOLD OUT THE CHRIST. He would have been sold out to the Christ. Bear with me, please. Through out the gospels, it reveals where Judas' heart was. Where Judas' treasure laid. It laid in what HE considered to be treasure. Earthly GAIN. To specify, MONEY. He sold what was priceless, for what he thought to be value. When he discovered his treasure was worthless, when he seen that he sold priceless possession, he gave up his life. He couldn't live with what he allowed himself to do. HE PLACED A MEASURE OF VALUE ON VALUE. Had he waited 3 more days, he could have given up his life, and taken on Christ's. He couldn't, because the conviction was so stong in his heart, and the reality was stronger in his head. He was condemned, by himself, and sentenced, by himself.
It started with compromise, when I turned from God in my earlier years. I remember telling God, that I loved a MAN more than Him, but not in those words. Here were the words I spoke. "If he dies and goes to hell, I'm going to hell with him, because heaven couldn't be heaven without him there." Having said that, I turned my heart from God, and told God that I KNEW he was there, in my head, but not in my heart.
To religious people, is Christ in your head or in your heart? I've had so many opportunties to turn back, but I know hell is back. The devil has put me in situations where the life I KNEW I was to be living, where I was to be living it, became hell, and he set everything in order at the place I use to live, as to tempt me to turn back, and had I not have the STRENGTH, and CONVICTION IN CHRIST, to go on, I would have caved, but THE GREATER ONE IS IN ME, AND I BELIEVE HIM MORE THAN MY CIRCUMSTANCES. No man, will hold me back, or tempt me to turn aside, to the left hand or the right. Oswald Chambers said, "What's testing your faith now, will either make it stronger, or kill it". You choose to back down, or press further into Him. It's easier to coward than to continue to run after Him. Why? Because it's harder to give up your will, and your fleshly desires, to take on His, and be conformed into His likeliness.
God's baby Girl, and a servant of Jesus, the Christ.
(I probably do have typos. Surely they can be seen passed.)
[This message has been edited by HellzShellz (edited 09-03-2006).]
I wouldn't ask a question that I, personally, wouldn't answer. I was running after love. I found a few cheap imitations, but it was an empty cistern. Thus, my thirst was never fully satisfied, until I ran into God. The irony is, I turned away from love (God is love), when I found what I thought love was. I knew I had to, but it wasn't as easy to find my way back, as it was to turn away. Rather the factor had been pride, unbelief, or rebellion. When you think you're walking in the light, and you're really in darkness, it's hard to be shown the light, because you think you're already right.
I was like Judas. How? Judas knew that Christ was the Son of God. How could he not have known? He was there though-out Christ's ministry. He seen Him raise the dead to life. He seen Him lay hands on the sick, and the sick recover. HE KNEW, in His head, but had he had the SAME CONVICTION in his heart, HE WOULD HAVE NEVER SOLD OUT THE CHRIST. He would have been sold out to the Christ. Bear with me, please. Through out the gospels, it reveals where Judas' heart was. Where Judas' treasure laid. It laid in what HE considered to be treasure. Earthly GAIN. To specify, MONEY. He sold what was priceless, for what he thought to be value. When he discovered his treasure was worthless, when he seen that he sold priceless possession, he gave up his life. He couldn't live with what he allowed himself to do. HE PLACED A MEASURE OF VALUE ON VALUE. Had he waited 3 more days, he could have given up his life, and taken on Christ's. He couldn't, because the conviction was so stong in his heart, and the reality was stronger in his head. He was condemned, by himself, and sentenced, by himself.
It started with compromise, when I turned from God in my earlier years. I remember telling God, that I loved a MAN more than Him, but not in those words. Here were the words I spoke. "If he dies and goes to hell, I'm going to hell with him, because heaven couldn't be heaven without him there." Having said that, I turned my heart from God, and told God that I KNEW he was there, in my head, but not in my heart.
To religious people, is Christ in your head or in your heart? I've had so many opportunties to turn back, but I know hell is back. The devil has put me in situations where the life I KNEW I was to be living, where I was to be living it, became hell, and he set everything in order at the place I use to live, as to tempt me to turn back, and had I not have the STRENGTH, and CONVICTION IN CHRIST, to go on, I would have caved, but THE GREATER ONE IS IN ME, AND I BELIEVE HIM MORE THAN MY CIRCUMSTANCES. No man, will hold me back, or tempt me to turn aside, to the left hand or the right. Oswald Chambers said, "What's testing your faith now, will either make it stronger, or kill it". You choose to back down, or press further into Him. It's easier to coward than to continue to run after Him. Why? Because it's harder to give up your will, and your fleshly desires, to take on His, and be conformed into His likeliness.
God's baby Girl, and a servant of Jesus, the Christ.
(I probably do have typos. Surely they can be seen passed.)
[This message has been edited by HellzShellz (edited 09-03-2006).]