i dont know sometimes. i geuss i believe in god, because atheist look dumb trying to explain things, with holes in all their theories, and things that just cant make sense to humans. i wont get into that part though.

but im in a bad situation now, and really dont even have a place to live. and just cant imagine something that had my good intentions(sp) for me, making me suffer. and not only that but my situation is wonderful compared to abunch of shit that goes on in the world. i feel like if any power controls the world, it's evil.

sometimes i'll just put a gun to my head, and just sit in the dark and cry. and i dont really want to die, and there be nothing after this. thoughts?

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i dont know sometimes. i geuss i believe in god, because atheist look dumb trying to explain things, with holes in all their theories, and things that just cant make sense to humans. i wont get into that part though.

but im in a bad situation now, and really dont even have a place to live. and just cant imagine something that had my good intentions(sp) for me, making me suffer. and not only that but my situation is wonderful compared to abunch of shit that goes on in the world. i feel like if any power controls the world, it's evil.

sometimes i'll just put a gun to my head, and just sit in the dark and cry. and i dont really want to die, and there be nothing after this. thoughts?

Sorry, but you sound like a perfect 'sheep', easy to convince, so any religion with go with you. If you want an advice try to find the answers deep into yourself. You do not need to believe in something, believe in you

If you look hard enough you can find positive in any of your situations (I guess it depends on what you believe about life).

So you haven't a home. Be thankful you're learning how to fend for yourself. It's a valuable lesson.

Also, I believe you shouldn't die unless you do it happily. Look hard for the positive.

Positive outlooks are only a choice away.

im not looking for a religion. im looking for someone who is of no religion to say that there is life after death, with some proof. isnt it true that your body creates an energy during life, and the energy will be there forever?

and i sound like a sheep by not accepting atheist bs theories about what they have "faith" that is how existance came about. having faith in their theories, is the same thing as what they look down on christians for, a blind faith in something they only believe because other men told them.

and my mom lets me stay here sometimes, and i come here while she's at work, but i've been living in a house that i know the owner was in jail. and he gets out today, so i dont know wtf im going to do. i cant find any good in my situation, and i just want to die sometimes, but i dont want to actually die, just rid myself of my earthly problems.

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for some reason i always pictured death as like similar to being really really high on weed for some reason. i just always thought that was what death felt like.

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for some reason i always pictured death as like similar to being really really high on weed for some reason. i just always thought that was what death felt like.

That's kinda what I believe.

When your brain is shutting down you lose the ability to think, and so are unable to daydream yourself away from the "moment". This is similar to being a baby and being stoned. Or so I believe.

<Random thoughts>

What is the moment but the experience of yourself? Prepare to meet yourself at death. Let's hope you're a good person.</random thoughts>

man, i thought i was the only person who thought that. but when im high, i feel like im thinking with my soul instead of my brain, and when you die, your brain is dead. and when im high, i really dont worry about this stuff, for some reason i just know there is something.

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but when im high, i feel like im thinking with my soul instead of my brain

Yeah, I made some beautiful realisations after smoking. And I think it's because you are closer to the moment/yourself/god??

The only times I got to a similar state whilst not high is after I chanted for 2 hours with the hare krishnas. And a little on some really sunny relaxing days aswell where my brain is chilled enough to just shut the fuck up.

You sound like a typical emo to me.

Read "the power of now" or in that fact, any new age spiritual books. that is..if your not a troll.

Read the Tao Te Ching it's a really simple philosophical spiritual text. It's a fairly hard concept to explain just google Toaism. Somebody else can explain better then me and it will actually only make sense once you look into it yourself.