Hello. This is the first time I have posted in this forum, so Ill just get straight to the point.

I am a Christian. My family is all Christian, and all of my relatives are. I usually just believe whatever they do, and am happy with it. But lately I have been thinking more about religion, what the point of life is, etc. And it is becoming increasingly difficult for me to believe that there is, in fact, a God.

I think my life would be much easier if I would just believe in God and would be content with it, but this is hard for me. It is hard to get me to change myself, or at least my thoughts on life.

Now on one side I am afraid of being a black sheep if I even mention this to my family. I just want there to be some sort of closure, or at least I could believe in some sort of meaning of life instead of this point where I am confused and dont know what to think. It is also hard to make any decisions now, as this is the first time I have started thinking like this.

And sorry if this is the wrong forum. Thank you for any help you can offer.

It's not so much what you believe, its your actions twards other people that make you what you are. Do what you know to be moral, and good.

This sort of thread is way too common here.

This is the same sort of advice I'd say if someone posted in S&A about not wanting to tell their parents their gay. It has nothing to do with them and they have no right to have anything to do with it. This is your mind, your beliefs, and the first thing to do is to get them the fuck out of everything.

You've come to realize something. You realize that this is how you actually think. You also realize that it'd be easier to go along with the herd, but that would really be right, but thats typically true. Is it more important for you to have an easy life, or to have a true life?

You don't need to be confused. The idea of a god is like imagining a security camera everywhere, following you, watching you. Do you really need that to stay "moral" or whatever it is you're trying to be in your life?

Let go. Step back from all of the gods and souls and other gobblygook and just let your life and your mind be your meaning. Live for your own goals, not for some deity's.

Do whats true for yourself. If your family accepts that or not, it doesn't really matter. What matters is that you accept yourself. Let everything else come next. Don't let people force things into your mind. They can't, its your mind. Don't let it be anything else.