Violent Monotreme
2008-02-14, 16:36
I am thinking about it. I just don't have a clue what I would do for a career. It scares the shit out of me to think that I may be just another flunky that works a 9-5 job making shit money. At the time I don't have a plan to prevent this. Everyone and there fucking mother is going to college these days. I hear it everyday and I am beginning to really believe that a degree isn't worth what it used to be.
I was an IT major for 3 semesters, got great grades mildly enjoyed the classes but was appalled by the idea of spending the rest of my life in front of a computer and knew that with the rapidly increasing technology in the world today my 4 year education might be useless in 10 years or less. After that I had the nifty idea that money wasn't too important to me and that archaeology would be great fun. I was wrong on both counts there, money means alot to me(I guess I am a bit shallow) and archaeology is funking boring as hell unless you are Indiana Jones. Right now I am taking business courses looking into marketing for a major. To be completely honest I don't even know why I am doing it. I am not interested in the least in business and most of the stuff I am learning now is common sense or completely useless. Yeah, I like money but I don't want to be a fucking slave to it. I hate these classes with a passion.
Bottom line right now is that I feel like a waste. I have been in school for 2 and a half years switching majors around like I am playing hopscotch and I have nothing to show for it and no idea of what I REALLY want out of an education. I just want a fucking job that I can enjoy and won't be making a miserably salary. I am a sharp witted person with an amazing ability to adapt and learn new things but when it comes to school where I feel like I am not accomplishing anything I have no motivation.
Anyone else feel this way? Anyone have any idea of what I am going through... any advice?
I am doing alot of whining here I know so feel free to call my a pansy and all that jazz but it is my future and my money I am spending on University so I don't want to waste it.
EDIT: It should also be added that I am going to a commuter college now and live with my rents. One of my goals in general is to get out of this town. Not because I dislike my parents or even dislike living with them, they are cool as shit and I love them to death. I just want to get to a bigger city where I would feel I had more oppurtunity and be more successful. Another huge part of me not wanting to drop out is how much I respect my mum and care for her... my older brother graduated from college in four years and I could tell by the look in her eyes how proud of him she was. She almost expects more of me because she knows how easy high school and college have been for me because I never struggle academically it just clicks for me... It would kill me to make her ashamed of me for being a dropout or a failure.
My brother graduated with a wildlife management Bachelor's degree or something like that and is currently employed making minimum wage but gaining good experience and gets paid for living expense. He isn't going to be making alot of money but he loves his job and is in good position to go up the ladder. It suits him perfectly I am jealous/proud of him in some ways because he is someone who knew what he wanted to be and did it.
I think this post is too long I am not expecting many replies, anyone who reads through all of this gets my sincere thanks though. I appreciate you taking the time and any advice you can give no matter how small will be appreciated.
I was an IT major for 3 semesters, got great grades mildly enjoyed the classes but was appalled by the idea of spending the rest of my life in front of a computer and knew that with the rapidly increasing technology in the world today my 4 year education might be useless in 10 years or less. After that I had the nifty idea that money wasn't too important to me and that archaeology would be great fun. I was wrong on both counts there, money means alot to me(I guess I am a bit shallow) and archaeology is funking boring as hell unless you are Indiana Jones. Right now I am taking business courses looking into marketing for a major. To be completely honest I don't even know why I am doing it. I am not interested in the least in business and most of the stuff I am learning now is common sense or completely useless. Yeah, I like money but I don't want to be a fucking slave to it. I hate these classes with a passion.
Bottom line right now is that I feel like a waste. I have been in school for 2 and a half years switching majors around like I am playing hopscotch and I have nothing to show for it and no idea of what I REALLY want out of an education. I just want a fucking job that I can enjoy and won't be making a miserably salary. I am a sharp witted person with an amazing ability to adapt and learn new things but when it comes to school where I feel like I am not accomplishing anything I have no motivation.
Anyone else feel this way? Anyone have any idea of what I am going through... any advice?
I am doing alot of whining here I know so feel free to call my a pansy and all that jazz but it is my future and my money I am spending on University so I don't want to waste it.
EDIT: It should also be added that I am going to a commuter college now and live with my rents. One of my goals in general is to get out of this town. Not because I dislike my parents or even dislike living with them, they are cool as shit and I love them to death. I just want to get to a bigger city where I would feel I had more oppurtunity and be more successful. Another huge part of me not wanting to drop out is how much I respect my mum and care for her... my older brother graduated from college in four years and I could tell by the look in her eyes how proud of him she was. She almost expects more of me because she knows how easy high school and college have been for me because I never struggle academically it just clicks for me... It would kill me to make her ashamed of me for being a dropout or a failure.
My brother graduated with a wildlife management Bachelor's degree or something like that and is currently employed making minimum wage but gaining good experience and gets paid for living expense. He isn't going to be making alot of money but he loves his job and is in good position to go up the ladder. It suits him perfectly I am jealous/proud of him in some ways because he is someone who knew what he wanted to be and did it.
I think this post is too long I am not expecting many replies, anyone who reads through all of this gets my sincere thanks though. I appreciate you taking the time and any advice you can give no matter how small will be appreciated.