This is a discussion I am yet to have with anyone in real life, but I hope to eventually.

What Brings Comfort to your Life. Can you Totsean's tell me? I am looking and not finding.

I don't know how to not be scared.

Tell me how you can be happy? What reason is there?

everyday of life you have is a fluke. You should quit worrying and being afraid simply because there is nothing to worry about or be afraid of. live everyday like its your last because it could be.

I seriously recommend reading the great philosophical and religious texts. find what speaks to you

I find pleasure in fighting. I can only feel alive when I'm either messing someone up or I get messed up myself.

you sound like a kidiot who has never been in a real fight and watches too many jet li movies.

Not that my life is uncomfortable, there are several things I really like; Music, just to enjoy, and it gives me insparation for intricate rhythms I like to make up in my head when I'm not doing anything inparticular. Orange juice, it's really refreshing.

But reading about technolgy and science is what really bring me comfort, in the most sense of the word. Most of my time is spent reading science books, not textbooks, but paperbacks convering certain issues, wormholes for instance, or online reading about other science news and things like Matrioshka Brains or whatever.

I also spend alot of time thinking about inventions that I thought of or just imagining senarios to do with space exploration, space mining.

Basically, thinking, learning and imagining brings comfort, or purpose, to my life.