I don't know where I came from or where I'm going. I'm here I know that much. Thats my belief system at the moment. I've noticed theres something religious people have that I don't though. The belief of a god thats got your back. Beliefs are fuel for the subconcious mind. Believing in a higher power thats on your side drives you. It gives you spirit.

Christianity is a load of shit though the reason christians are such pussies is because they worship a faggot of a god who wants them to pray and not steal or have sex with peoples wives. They don't really fight with the spirit of their god.

The vikings now they had a better god. Odin was meant to be a violent god of war. The only sin in odins eyes was weakness. To get into Valhalla they had to fight to the death, give it all they had and kill as many of their enemies as possible and then they might recieve a warriors welcome in Valhalla. Thats why Vikings were such savages. They were driven by the spirit of a violent war god. If they were ever in doubt they'd just think "what would Odin do?". If a christians in a big fight and thinks "what would Jesus do?" wheres that gonna get him?

Anyhow what I'm trying to get at is its the belief thats the driving force. It doesn't matter if this god really exists all that matters is you believe in it. Theres no way I'm believing in the christian god. I've heard people say "good God fearing christians" as if fearing god is a good thing. Fuck that my god smites people for having fear. Theres nothing good about fear. I won't do as god says I'll do as he does but not outta fear outta respect for what he does.

I've made up an image of God and started believing in it and I'm serious it actually works. My Gods alot more like that viking God, not necessarily a god of war or any of that shit but a god takes no excuses for weakness. A god that intends you to operate at near superhuman levels and never let any obstacles stop you.

All this sounds stupid the way I've written but I have the thoughts in my head and I'm dead serious it works. When you believe you have this God backing you it gives you spirit. A driving force. Like I said beliefs are fuel for the subconscious mind. Humans are capable of much more than they know. I think its their beliefs that hold them back. You know those stories about the mother lifting the car cuz her sons trapped under it. I think what happens there is her intend overcomes any inhibiting beliefs she has and she just does it regardless of how irrational it seems to her logical mind. Similarly some people walk on hot coals without getting burned because they believe it.

Theres a difference between believing something and thinking it though. Maybe we need to use hypnosis to fully introduce an unfactually founded belief into our minds. I may just get a hypnotist to get my new religion to fully sink into my mind some day and see what the outcome be.