Cant Quite Tell
2008-12-24, 20:33
In the area I am for the moment, I don't have many friends or much family. So as it happens, I'm going to be completely alone on Christmas day. I'm not religious or anything, but it's just nice to be with someone on a day when everyone is giving each other gifts and just being together.
My gf doesn't celebrate Christmas (another religion), but is going to be going out to the movies with a couple family members on Christmas. She pretty much knew in advance that I would be alone and that I wasn't thrilled about it. I didn't explicitly say "Please be with me, I'm going to be so alone, don't go to the movies which you can do any day, you selfish ass", but I put it in blunt enough terms that anyone could pick up on the fact that I wasn't happy.
But this isn't the first time. Last new years, I was in the same place and she basically was gonna go get trashed with a few friends, while leaving me at home alone (because I don't know anyone around here and no one had invited me). And she was basically going to ditch me on my birthday for some fairly inane reason.
Basically, I feel like during the MANY times I've needed a friend to hang out with, she has just let me down for dumb reasons. I've been there for her SO MUCH. She has had so many problems or just been plain lonely, and I've ditched people or plans I had or things I needed to do just to be there for her and make her happy.
I love her and want this to work, but it seems to be a general pattern...when I need her, she's not there for me. Hell, it doesn't even need to be a S.O, I wouldn't want any decent friend to be alone on a mildly special day.
My gf doesn't celebrate Christmas (another religion), but is going to be going out to the movies with a couple family members on Christmas. She pretty much knew in advance that I would be alone and that I wasn't thrilled about it. I didn't explicitly say "Please be with me, I'm going to be so alone, don't go to the movies which you can do any day, you selfish ass", but I put it in blunt enough terms that anyone could pick up on the fact that I wasn't happy.
But this isn't the first time. Last new years, I was in the same place and she basically was gonna go get trashed with a few friends, while leaving me at home alone (because I don't know anyone around here and no one had invited me). And she was basically going to ditch me on my birthday for some fairly inane reason.
Basically, I feel like during the MANY times I've needed a friend to hang out with, she has just let me down for dumb reasons. I've been there for her SO MUCH. She has had so many problems or just been plain lonely, and I've ditched people or plans I had or things I needed to do just to be there for her and make her happy.
I love her and want this to work, but it seems to be a general pattern...when I need her, she's not there for me. Hell, it doesn't even need to be a S.O, I wouldn't want any decent friend to be alone on a mildly special day.