Awkibo
2009-01-03, 01:29
Alright so i loved a girl.
bad move straight from the start. The worse news, she's my very close friend, and at the time i thought her my best friend.
Well I found out our feelings for each other were mutual, but she had to break up with her boyfriend first.
damnit.
well guess what, the she wont break up with him, fucking months pass. Until one day she decides to tell me something (well isnt that nice of her)
Apparantly at the age of 19 she met this banker who's 39, She goes on and on about how she likes to sex him so right then and there I say fuck it, or so i thought.
Right there and then the spark went away, and whatever attraction I had for her turned to spite, so I put all my efforts into getting away from her, first time i ever made an effort for anything really, I got myself into a college 12 hours away from her. Finally i could be happy.
then it happened again.
she called me, out of the blue, telling me she missed me. After that we had regular conversations via the internet discussing each other our relationships and eventually we came to realise that we still had feelings for each other, and she wanted to come and see me.
I think you can see where this is going.
So she comes to visit, and things are going ok, we hang out. Drink. I'm nervous as fuck but thats beside the point. So what do i do, i kiss her.
she kisses me back.
how great, so we start to talk, the topic of sex is brought up. She says she needs a few more drinks then we'll talk.
FUCK.
Upstairs we go, time to have a "chat".
I'll boil away the bullshit and give you a brief synopse
me- I want to have sex with you.
her-so you see me as a sex object.
me- don't be stupid I like you as a person, as well as sexually.
her- i want to have sex with you too, but i can't.
me- que?
her- I want to have a relationship with you, But you live too far away, I couldn't stand not being touched for four months
me- So what, (I haven't had sex in half a year god damnit) Can't we just have some casual sex?
her- no, because it would make it awkward between us.
WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH!
IT'S AWKWARD NOW!
so yeah, now I can't see her anything more than a walking bag of meat with great tits.
does this make me a bad person?
p.s. one of the schools i could have gone to is the one she went to, irony is delicious. Although I guess i made the far-away move for a reason, i just shouldn't have been so easily seduced by the idea of her. again.
bad move straight from the start. The worse news, she's my very close friend, and at the time i thought her my best friend.
Well I found out our feelings for each other were mutual, but she had to break up with her boyfriend first.
damnit.
well guess what, the she wont break up with him, fucking months pass. Until one day she decides to tell me something (well isnt that nice of her)
Apparantly at the age of 19 she met this banker who's 39, She goes on and on about how she likes to sex him so right then and there I say fuck it, or so i thought.
Right there and then the spark went away, and whatever attraction I had for her turned to spite, so I put all my efforts into getting away from her, first time i ever made an effort for anything really, I got myself into a college 12 hours away from her. Finally i could be happy.
then it happened again.
she called me, out of the blue, telling me she missed me. After that we had regular conversations via the internet discussing each other our relationships and eventually we came to realise that we still had feelings for each other, and she wanted to come and see me.
I think you can see where this is going.
So she comes to visit, and things are going ok, we hang out. Drink. I'm nervous as fuck but thats beside the point. So what do i do, i kiss her.
she kisses me back.
how great, so we start to talk, the topic of sex is brought up. She says she needs a few more drinks then we'll talk.
FUCK.
Upstairs we go, time to have a "chat".
I'll boil away the bullshit and give you a brief synopse
me- I want to have sex with you.
her-so you see me as a sex object.
me- don't be stupid I like you as a person, as well as sexually.
her- i want to have sex with you too, but i can't.
me- que?
her- I want to have a relationship with you, But you live too far away, I couldn't stand not being touched for four months
me- So what, (I haven't had sex in half a year god damnit) Can't we just have some casual sex?
her- no, because it would make it awkward between us.
WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH!
IT'S AWKWARD NOW!
so yeah, now I can't see her anything more than a walking bag of meat with great tits.
does this make me a bad person?
p.s. one of the schools i could have gone to is the one she went to, irony is delicious. Although I guess i made the far-away move for a reason, i just shouldn't have been so easily seduced by the idea of her. again.