E-WEAPONS DIARY
The collected memoirs of the electronic weapon MKULTRA
victims of the late 20th century, presented in diary format.
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E-Weapons Diary #61 (Anonymous e-weapons victim)
February 3, 1998
E-weapon effects on bodily functions.
I would like to tell you a few things about things
we dare not talk about but which are a favorite to
the imbeciles as I call them because only imbeciles
could continue doing this with every intention
premeditated. They are like gunmen expressing
their domination on hostages with guns and cannons
bought with the money they stole from them.
Sciatic nerve simulation and constipation vs
diarhea approach
I always had very strong back muscles especially
those that protect the vertebras.
This lest summer in three months with terrible and
repeated electromagnetic shocks to the lower back
at any time of day or night and whether I was
movong or not they have succeeded in destroying the
mass and firmness and protection that I had always
had. The purpose of this I found out was not only
to stop me from working or replaxing but was to
reach the sciatic nerve that now they can can hurt
terribly with now but a very weak signal
transmission which naturally can be even harder to
detect.
Constipation
In 1989 as I had been made conscious of what was
behind averything that had been happening to me for
the last 15 years I was shock to the point of going
wild to find them electrocuting me as I was going
about daily evacuation. And not anywhere but right
there. The purpose was to destroy the capcity to
execute normal physical needs and them with
constipation installed and belly ache provoked
either normally or by them create a hard cell plug
which they could use to rip as evacuation was
forced by contraction.
But there is something else to this technique.
They contract the anus muscle parly which force the
evacuation sideways. To this add irradiation day
and night on the same but larger region of the body
and you end up with all is required of loosenees
provoked not by age or physical condition but by
repeated electrocution and irradiarion. Finally
they reach their goal.
I hope you understand what these three points
mean.
Diarhea
A few years ago we heard that an equipment had been
invented to control a mob. Well the technique being
too obvious, especially if it occurred at the same
time on a large group of people they choose to
create the contrary, constipation (instead of
relaxing muscles and provoking bellyache they
contract the muscles stopping normal body
evacuation) . Nobody wants to talk about it and
then they can do it to anyone...
Note. Eleanor one argument that could be very
influental on the media and people who still
hesitate to help us would be to let them know that
we may be fifty or somewhat more that are informed
but many more are still being aggresssed without
them knowing about it; an old man to a new born
child can be the target of those imbeciles
destroying an old man's relation with wtih his
children or the fortune he was aiming to give to
them or destroying what could have become a
beautiful and maybe a powerful personality God had
reserved for the newborn.
We the 60 victims have been made conscious of what
is happening to us after many years in some cases
because probably in a weaker position to defend
ourselves them others who the imbeciles prefer not
being made conscious. Get it...
So in fact and we know, they are as much victims
are we are but could do something about it knowing
what is done to them, from losing a girlfriend to
losing physical atractions done by modifying
complexion or reducing skin firmess or other means
...
Anonymous e-weapons victim
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E-Weapons Diary #62 (Patricia Mougey)
February 5, 1998
[E.W. Note: When Mrs. Mougey refers to "hear" and
"see", she is talking about a common experience
among e-weapons victims: The ability of the
harassers' equipment to transmit their remarks
directly into the victim's skull, and to see thru
the victim's eyes.]
In my story on Mind Control Forum I go into detail
about interference with electrical/electronic
equipment...including my new computer and printer.
Last week, (last week of January, l998) while
printing out pages to mail to Senator Mike DeWine,
one female harasser said, "Is that l00 pages? OK."
I looked down, and immediately the print began to
fade on one line, and then the balance of the page
went blank.
Much earlier ( in l997), I heard a male voice say,
"Hey...isn't the print on her page a little light?"
Within 2 seconds the copy being printed turned
darker.
I'd wondered why the print never faded over several
pages, as it does when the cartridge was truly
getting empty, and they've answered the question...
they control it so it "runs out of ink" whenever
THEY decide it should.
Pat Mougey
_PS: I seem to have a group of people who like to
announce their superiority by forcing me to hear
their remarks. Their ego has always been supremely
high.
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E-Weapons Diary #63 (Eleanor White)
February 6, 1998
The POWER of memory erasure technology.
What I call "memory erasure" is probably a case of
electronic hypnosis - that is, the victim is caused
to forget things because they are induced to focus
on something else. At least that is the impression
I get during the now frequent memory erasure
episodes.
I have to take an important stomach medication
exactly once a day - otherwise I get very sick.
This medication is dispensed from 14-day cards with
each day of the week printed on each tablet's
recess.
The e-weapon harassers have lately (Jan-Feb 98)
been VERY successful in erasing important things,
like the medication, and like important tasks at
work. My co-workers will vouch for this.
An example of just how powerful this technology can
be is demonstrated by the fact that at my small
dining table, I keep the dispenser card of stomach
pills clamped directly at the center of my eating
place, on TOP of the table, using a large foldback
paper clamp.
The dispenser is actually curled up so that it
projects 2 inches above the table top, and it
definitely contacts my hands and utensils when I
eat. It is frankly a nuisance.
I also keep an empty pill dispenser on top of my
monitored burglar alarm panel, which I have to move
in order to set and unset the alarm.
In spite of these precautions, the harassers
succeed in getting me to forget my pills on an
average of twice a week.
The reader is urged to ponder the implications of
this - there is no discernable effect to clue in
the victim, and there is no reason this can't be
happening to many more people than we approx. 50
known e-weapons guinea pigs.
There is no reason it can't be happening right now
to government leaders in sensitive positions.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET or you have explained
NONE.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #64 (Eleanor White)
February 12, 1998
Attitude indicator.
This incident is so small that it's hardly worth
writing execept for one thing: It shows the
harassers' mindset and extremism very clearly.
I've had a couple of courses in the UNIX operating
system and several years' experience. Nevertheless,
I've found that books for beginners in any field
often have very handy information which even an
expert may have missed.
I purchased the "for Dummies" book on UNIX. After
finishing the book, I put it on our company book-
shelf, a large unit in the main office. The
books there are kept in cardboard magazine holders
because many of them are thin and paperback.
On the morning after I placed the book on the
shelf unit, I came in to find it had been lifted
and tilted back so the "for Dummies" portion of
the title was showing. This is classic harasser
activity. Their orders are to do every possible
thing each and every day to make the victim look
inept.
A much earlier incident at another company -
there was a technician there who was on the night
shift and who regularly sabotaged my machine and
files, and lab test setups. He was a true mental
case - perfect harasser material.
I set up a cordless phone base station so it
connected with a modem and made it possible for
the receptionist to transfer a call to my cord-
less unit rather than a normal desk unit. The
modem provided a CSA approved interface to the
phone line but it's data section was not used.
While I was showing the hybrid cordless unit to
one of the managers, this clown walked up and
pointed out that the mouthpiece holes were
blocked off - that is, they were fakes. The
actual mike was vented by a tiny pinhole at the
lowest end of the unit - a feature now common
on cell phones.
He did this just as he did with other supposed
"problems" with my setup - in an attempt to
show the world that I was incompetent. He also
sabotaged original programs and hand built test
equipment.
So the exposure to the world of the "for Dummies"
portion of the book title was perfectly in line
with past experience - virtually a signature of
these cowardly misfits. These small incidents
are useful, though, in pointing out the type of
person who gladly goes into a career in electronic
harassment.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #65 (Eleanor White)
February 15, 1998
A note to diary readers.
After 64 diary entries, mostly mine, readers may
have noticed that these articles have slowed to a
trickle. The reason is that in order to present a
clear and complete picture of the daily life of an
e-weapons victim, it was necessary to "play
catchup" and touch on at least some of the little
nasties experienced over the past 8 years.
A true diary will include repeats, but one hope for
this experience list is that some forward- looking
media people will pick up on it and maybe give us a
little ink. For that reason I don't write up every
day's repeated events.
Make no mistake about it - my harassers and those
of most victims provide a HUGE SMORGASBORD of
harassment 24 hours of each and every day. I don't
want casual readers or media people thinking that
no entries mean everything is fine in between. Not
so at all.
For example in the last 24 hours, I've experienced
this incomplete list:
- Electronically triggered itching night and day
- Huge thumping sounds from the floor above
my apartment almost every single time I tried
to fall asleep (These are 99% certainly sound-
to-skull transmissions, the preferred method
in apartment buildings. My boss and a former
roommate confirmed that really heavy booms
can be transmitted to me but not heard by
someone a few feet away.)
- Hot needles pushed into fleshy body parts
- Physical bumping of my bed when I tried
to sleep
- Electronically induced body jerks
- General electronic caffeine signal - you can't
even start to sleep no matter how exhausted
- Electronic hypnosis commands to turn in bed
at precise on the hour/half-hour times selected
by the harassers
- Turning of alarm clock 15 minutes fast either
through apartment entry or by remote physical
manipulation
- A couple of instances of remotely induced
fumbling of objects (utensils, book)
- Loud, raucous unnatural "bird" calls at freq-
encies right at the very top of the hearing
range, and at least ten times as loud as any
natural bird could be - almost painful
- Faked "buzz-in" lock trouble at the work bldg.;
provocateur employee pretended he couldn't
open the door so I had to go to the front door
and open a perfectly functioning door - same
guy regularly hassles me during the week,
and no doubt enjoys some "walking money"
in return)
- Fake "renovation" every time I tried to take
a daytime nap and at meal time (my apt.
bldg. saves up all work for Sat. & Sun. aft-
ernoons apparently.) What I'm talking
about is hammering, drilling etc. that is timed
almost to the second when I try to slide off
into sleep or have a meal - additionally, I
never hear this at any other time, and it's
been 8 years of this by now. Way beyond
coincidence.
The point is: Readers please remember that 64
diary entries are continuously performed and
re-performed, always in rotation to avoid others'
noticing, day and night. 64 harassment methods is
quite a catalog and it's by no means complete.
The point is also: OTHER VICTIMS, please add your
experiences even if they are carbon copies of what
I've already written. Adding your names will make
this little project much more attractive to media
readers.
Other victims have over the years written me some
great emails describing their experiences - so why
not let me post them? You can do so anonymously.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET, or you have explained
none of them.
Eleanor white
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E-Weapons Diary #66 (Eleanor White)
February 16, 1998
Another computer virus.
The 7 weeks since New Years' 1998 have seen
extensive computer virus activity at my place of
work.
Right after New Years' week, our field technician
had a series of customer boot diskettes turn up
with viruses. That MAY be just hacking at the
customer's site.
A week after that, I discovered that a virus called
"NYB", which resides in the "boot sector" of a
bootable diskette or disk, suddenly popped up on
every machine on to which I had installed the
Internet software.
Now we NEVER download executable programs or
software from the Internet, and executable programs
are needed to make a virus "grow". The central
processor must RUN a virus program for it to do any
harm.
Also, computer viruses aren't caught by proximity,
as biological viruses are.
So when I found that the Internet software
diskettes ALSO had the virus, this is solid proof
of deliberate planting, not only deliberate, but
also by covert entry into the locked-at-night
computer room.
Those install diskettes did NOT come with viruses -
I checked them, and one machine not normally used
with the Inter- net was clean, after 1996
installation from those diskettes.
About 3 weeks ago, our accounts receivable manager
had her machine virused. A/R has long been a
favourite target for all sorts of computer
harassment - it's way off by itself with easy
evening warehouse shift access. At times, one or
more of their machines have been disrupted DAILY.
Just this morning, my own PC turned up to have been
virused AGAIN. It is clear that these are attacks
and not accidents.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL events taken
together as a complete SET, or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #67 (Eleanor White)
February 20, 1998
Classic incident.
As you read this, remember that the e-weapons
harassers constantly stage non-electronic harassment
incidents to keep the victim off balance, but most
of all, to ensure the victim will be seen as insane
and not believed by the community at large.
Small children are constantly used to mis-behave in
ways an e-weapons victim can never "prove", but at
the same time, behave in obviously "set up" manner.
Early this morning, my next door neighbour began to
knock on my door. I was undressed, so ignored the
knocking for about 20 minutes. When I left for
work, I found out what he was so anxious to tell
me:
"I'm leaving, and the super is moving a young fellow,
a friend of his into my apartment". I have no social
connections whatever with this retired gentleman, the
same one that delivered a dirty picture to our recep-
tionist one day, within minutes of when I went home
sick in mid-day. He insisted she copy the picture
and gave it to me.
Now this guy, though he obviously lets the harassers
use his next door apartment regularly (door opening
and closing all night, etc.) has no family and has
been relatively quiet. I'm fairly certain this new
person has a young family.
I can count on the kids using the area outside our
doors (which are separated by about 12 inches) as
their noisy playground. Young kids repeatedly
knock on my door persistently and loudly, every time
I try to nap or eat.
Young kids have stood in building entrances daring
me to touch them to get past. Two young girls
(about 6 and 8) at another apartment building used
to wait for me to get home, then rush up and stand
almost in physical contact while I waited for the
elevator, and passionately hugging, kissing, and
"feeling one another up" as their saucy little faces
stared straight at me. This is not typical behaviour
for 6 and 8 year olds, and it repeated for about two
years until I moved.
As to the super, who is this person's chum, he is the
one who continues to pretend the stack of three
apartments directly above mine, and also in the line
of "microwave fire" from the apt. below, are occupied.
I have observed these three units for the past 3-1/2
years and they remain empty, probably because they
might receive some of the harassment equipment's
effects from below.
This super also breaks into a raucous, unnaturally
loud whistle every single time he spots me in a
hallway when there are no other witnesses. He never
does that when there are other witnesses.
The super is also the one responsible for scheduling
all "maintenance" work in the vicinity of my apart-
ment on Saturday and Sunday afternoons/evenings,
precisely at the time I try to lie down and nap, or
settle down to a leisurely meal. The carpet in
the hallway near my apartment gets so much weekend
vacuuming that it looks like a bleached desert.
So - in addition to harassment by the super's chum's
kids, I can count on:
- loud blasting music
- "accidental" bumping the thin wall between
my apartment and his
- loud "street theatre" conversations outside
my apartment during attempted naps and meals
- possibly sex-related innuendo from both resident
and visiting children
- very likely some loud parties
I can also count on all harassment being denied by
the super, who is supposed to maintain order.
If a skeptic is tempted to tell me this is an
ordinary part of living in an apartment building,
let me say that prior to my 8-years as an e-weapons
harassment victim, I was 48 at the time, and I did
get an accurate idea of what normal apartment living
is like. THIS is NOTHING like that.
I may be a victim, but I'm wise enough to know when
apartment "problems" are staged.
When this artificial nasty behaviour follows you
through 4 different apartment buildings, it is
obvious it is orchestrated, and not "the luck of
the draw".
Skeptics: You must explain ALL incidents taken
together as a complete SET or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #68 (Mikey)
March 6, 1998
Day before yesterday, I confirmed an appointment to
visit a psychiatrist. Yesterday's visit went
reasonably well. I was not put on the defensive
this time. The microwave induced voice activity
increased when I confirmed the appointment and
continues as I write this diary entry. The voices
today have been exclusively female. Female voices
are usually generated whenever I get more than 5
hours continuously sleep, which is extremely rare.
The last few weeks I have experienced several days
of increased anxiety associated with nervousness,
trembling hands and increased appetite. For a
couple of days, there were periods when I could not
get enough to eat. The anxiety appears to be
correlated with increased mental activity during
sleep the night preceding the anxiety. This is not
always the case.
Induced sleep deprivation and anxiety is usually
associated with my wanting to engage in activities
outside of the norm, i.e church participation other
than Sunday service or taking any prescription drug
to relieve anxiety and stress. The stressors
increase in relation to the amount of medication
taken to offset its therapeutic value.
I also visited my primary care physician today to
get medication for a cold. This is the second time
within 90 days I've contracted a cold. The
constant stress and the electromagnetic monitoring
may be affecting my immune system, however, I have
no medical evidence to support this.
Mikey
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E-Weapons Diary #69 (Nancy B)
Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Shielding Devises
[EW Note: "Cardinal" is the code name of an e-weapons
victim of Nancy B's acquaintance. Nancy B is close
to Cardinal, and she thus signs as a "co-victim".]
Dear Diary Reader:
I think it is great that you are taking the time to try
to understand and perhaps even empathize with what it is
like to be a victim of electronic abuse. In short and
to quote "Cardinal", "It's like having a disease with a
volition."
Well, can you imagine having a personalized verbal abuse
radio station in your head that you can't shut off?
What about having a physical ailment which does not
originate in your own body and, therefore, cannot be
treated systemically? And then, when you attempt to
explain what is REALLY going on, should you possess the
knowledge, you are revictimized by rampant disbelief.
It can be stifling to say the least.
There is nowhere to run and hide - just some ways to cope
as best you can.
As you may surmise, many victims are institutionalized,
suffering quietly in ignorance, screaming bloody murder
to people who won't help, other victims are dead by
suicide. We may never know the full extent. And what
did they do to deserve this? Nothing. There is no
justification for it. And this includes National
Security.
Try as you might to "ostrich-ize" this problem away, the
truth is that NO ONE is immune or safe from the aberrant
usage of this technology.
Right now, you are probably physically in a room
somewhere with walls all around, sitting, and mentally,
of course, you are in your own mind with skull all
around, reading. But are you aware that this technology
has the ability to bypass those physical structures as
if they were nonexistant and to interface with your mind
and body? So, what can you do about it anyway?
You started by empowering yourself with knowledge. Next
educate others. This technology invades the inner
sanctum of the mind where it does not belong. That
private place is yours. Anything else is a horrendous
violation of your human rights not to mention of your
God given birthday present of free will.
Don't just sit there, do something. Scream bloody
murder. For what is life without freedom of thought?
It's not you; you are not you anymore without your own
thoughts. Might as well dead in Hell.
Sincerely,
Nancy B, a covictim
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E-Weapons Diary #70 (Eleanor White)
March 18, 1998
Sometimes I think my harassers just want me to
publish diary entries about them.
Between 10 and 11 am, I normally go to the lunch
room to make a cup of instant coffee. The coffee
pot is fairly new (a few months) and in excellent
condition. The lunch room's kitchen area has six
independent circuits feeding six outlets, for
kettles and microwave ovens.
This morning, I found a half-full kettle with the
water still quite hot - someone had just boiled
the water.
I unplugged microwave ovens and tried other
outlets. Still dead as a doornail.
So I accepted the warm but not boiling water.
Immediately one of our staff pharmacists walked
in, plugged in the pot, and it boiled IMMEDIATELY.
This man knows about the spook activity, and is
now a confirmed in-person witness to another one
of their "acts".
But there's more: A short time after this, I
approached two co-workers making photocopies
on a large Xerox copier in good condition, on
it's own 240-volt outlet. The power was shut
down at the moment I arrived for about ten
seconds.
There have been no electricians working in the
building today, and neither of these outlets
have had this type of problem over my 6-year
career here.
One of the co-workers at the copier is now also
a confirmed in-person witness - she knows the
background behind the local harassment problem.
What some people will do to get a little attention!
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET, otherwise you have
explained NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #71 (Cardinal)
March 27, 1998
Dear Diary reader:
Despite the fact that I have been an EMR victim for
several decades, still, I'll wake up some mornings
thinking "This CAN'T be happening." Then one of
them (my personal torture technicians) is right on
me with the reply "Don't you just wish it were so?
Ha, Ha." The voice, albeit gruff, is so clear,
having bypassed the physical mechanisms of normal
hearing.
"What's it gonna be?" We both wonder the same thing.
I awaken EACH AND EVERY DAY knowing that approxi-
mately eighty percent of my time, much more than that
of a full time job, will be spent just dealing with
their incessant mental inanities and inflicted
physical pain.
Metaphorically speaking, this means actively main-
taining a position beside the rushing waterfall
trying to keep myself from being washed away or
drowned, or standing outside the raging furnace
without allowing myself to be sucked in and burned.
(This is how I expend my depleting energies.) And,
sometimes it's a matter of simply walking through
it. Other victims will know exactly what I mean
here.
I endure by focussing on hope.
They are NOT going to win.
Yours truly,
Cardinal
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E-weapons diary #72 (Marion)
April 3, 1998
Tinnitus-like sounds.
Hi everyone:
I've been an e-weapons victim for almost 4 years.
I have been followed to several states, severely
irradiated and have experienced the muscle spasms
and electrical "zits" that are common. The invasion
imagery (forced dreaming) used on me has been
abusive; the sick people, as I call the
perpetrators, have shown me swastikas and murder.
I am a fine, fine sculptor and have been in contact
with Eleanor for about 5 months. I want to tell you
what the sick people are doing now. [I've seen a
photo of her work - it really is fine! EW]
Beginning in early January, I started hearing the
tinnitus-like sounds in my ears, that others have
experienced as Eleanor reported some weeks later.
Once, in January, I woke up to very loud drumming.
Then 2-3 weeks ago, the drumming came back as a
continuous background sound. And then, a week or so
ago, the sounds became very loud, all night and
every night. They used static sounds that swept up
and down the vocal range, which went on
simultaneously with a whirring/drilling sound and
sometimes alternated. They changed the different
sounds from one ear to the other.
This invasion is bloody horrible, but the problem is
that as the sick people are well aware, I already
have a hearing loss. I have babied my hearing for
years - it would have lasted my whole life. I know
about the mechanics of hearing. These sounds are
deliberately intended to damage my hearing further,
if not to make me deaf and therefor incapacitated.
I am seeing doctors and documenting this. I am
telling everyone. I'd like to know what anyone else
on this list has experienced.
I was hit badly last year when I was not in contact
with other victims and knew little about what was
going on. I was certainly not doing anything about
it. Now they are hitting me in this physically
damaging way when I am in contact with other victims
and am writing letters. Even if their pattern
seemed to conform to anything I am doing - which it
does not - I would and will continue to write
letters.
These people are such pitiful cowards. Do they go
home at night and tell the wife what brave things
they did today against defenseless people? That
they live at such a level, that this is all they
understand to do, God, what limited lives.
I could use your prayers, as you always have mine.
Your writing on this site is so important.
With love,
Marion
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E-weapons Diary #73 (Eleanor White)
April 5, 1998
Another tape recorder dies.
E-Weapons Diary #8, of January 4, 1998, described
the death of a good quality microcassette battery
operated recorder, which I use to try to trap some
of the more extreme goofy noises made by the spooks.
Many of the indoor noises are transmitted via
voice-to-skull (voice modulated radar type signal)
and are not tape recordable by me - they are usually
sprung on me at odd times by surprise and don't
last long enough to get a good attempt at recording.
Therefore, I usually only use a microcassette rec-
order to record the outdoor noises, which are tape
recordable, (but usually shut down the instant I
press the Record button.)
Well, this morning on the way to work, while the
spooks were making noises straight out of an old
WW II movie, where Japanese soldiers harass U.S.
troops in the jungle at night with weird noises,
my replacement recorder, purchased December 30,
1997, has also died.
It had been cared for well, and it's original
alkaline batteries were still at nominal voltage
level with the Record button pushed.
Coincidence - two recorders in a little over
3 months, right?
Skeptics: You must explain all of the incidents
taken together as a complete set, or you have
not explained any of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #74 (Mikey)
April 10, 1998
Castration is one aspect of this experience which
is most difficult to discuss. Deliberate and
systematic manipulation of my libido is an integral
part of this mind control experience. I often
experience stressors which decrease my desire for
sexual intimacy. This usually begins with intense
imagery, dreaming or mental activity the night
preceding a date. Also, the stressors are often
initiated on Thursday night as a prelude to the
weekend. The imagery or mental activity during
sleep creates fatigue, anxiety and mental
disjointedness. If I am really physically
attracted to an individual, I may experience
microwave induced dissonant voices or some other
combination of negative/positive punishments.
Frustration, impotence and negative outcomes have
been associated with sex so that it is no longer
enjoyable. A recent urological examination did not
detect anything physically wrong. The loneliness
and the lack of intimacy are only overshadowed by
the incessant fatique and emotional pain. It's
Friday morning and I experienced the mental
activity during sleep last night. I need God's
strength to make it through another day.
Mikey
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E-Weapons Diary #75 (Kathy Heckman)
April 13, 1998
Artificially induced heart problems.
[NOTE: A number of e-weapons victims, myself included,
have experienced electronically induced heart pain and
palpitation. This experience is not unique to Kathy
Heckman. I have not personally heard of anyone having
an actual heart attack from this, however, there is
always a first time.]
For months now the perpetrators have been telling me
"You're a heart attack victim". And I am afraid that they
are killing me. I am subjected to heart pain and it
sometimes feels like my heart has expanded in my chest.
I've also felt pressure on the left side of my neck, and it
feels like they're constricting the artery.
In case of my death, I want it known that I've been
murdered. They woke me up at 2:35 AM this morning and I
couldn't get back to sleep with their chatter; and so I got
up at 5:30 am to go to work. Last night was one of the
nights my heart felt in pain, and I still feel pressure on
it at work.
I'm afraid of going to directly to the Sheriff because I
don't want to be arrested or put in mental health hold. So
what do I do? I'm going to send a letter to the Sheriff in
Calaveras County where I live. I've given him an earlier
version of my story, but I want to tell him that my life is
threatened and if I die, it is murder. I'm going to write
the police in Ventura County the same. That is where this
started and I hope to move their in late July. I'm also
going to write the coroners in both counties to please
remember that I am told I am being murdered.
I figure they either want me dead or insane, and the
constant attack on my heart could be so that an autopsey
would reveil an enlarged heart, which indicates damaged
caused by drug use. I do not use drugs and don't want to be
smeared in my death as well as in my life.
I am also going to carry a short note to the same effect in
my purse with the request that if I die someone notifies
Eleanor and the Mind Control e-mail group.
Meanwhile, I go to work and save money so I can move closer
to the daughter whose custody I lost in 1994 when these
theives entered my life.
Sincerely,
Kathleen Heckman
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E-Weapons Diary #76 (Eleanor White)
April 21, 1998
Email read by spooks?
I'm privileged to have had an engineering school
classmate who has made it to the "chief scientist"
level at one of NASA's major facilities.
When I wrote him a couple of years ago, telling
him the story of neuro-influence weapons and their
illegal use, he discussed it with his colleagues
and told me the consensus was that I was crazy.
Fine - no problem there - at that point that was
always the response.
A few days ago, I emailed him the Nature magazine
article (January 22, 1998, page 316) in which the
French Government, via their Bioethics Committee,
has publicly declared that neuro-influence tech-
nology is NOT fiction, and that even UNclassified
medical scanner technology is approaching weapons
capability.
At this time my former classmate has not become
"on fire" with interest, however, he has begun
to ask me a few questions. One of those questions
was: "What about the effects on the heart?".
I wrote him back (no response received yet) that
taking the targetted test subject part way into
a heart attack state has been a common experience.
I also told him that a few years ago, roughly
1992-1995, giving me heart distress symptoms was
common, and that they seemed to have given up on
it. (Reason probably being, as a Christian, I
have no particular fear of death, and simply said
to God silently "If you really want me now,
Father, I'm ready", rolled over, and tried to
sleep.)
I suspect that artifical heart trouble is used
to stress out the victim for whatever sick
experimental purposes. In my case, that doesn't
particularly stress me out.
So, after almost 3 years of zero heart symptoms,
the very night after sending that email, I
got hit with perhaps 20 "heart hurts".
Coincidence? Or, is it "not nice" in the spooks'
view for a neuro-influence guinea pig to be
talking to NASA?
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences, taken
together as a complete SET, or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #77 (Eleanor White)
April 23, 1998
Theft of consumable supplies.
Theft of consumable supplies has long been a staple
activity to accompany neuro-influence weapons
harassment. The idea is to stress the test subject,
for who knows what purpose - direct testing or
to keep the guinea pig off balance and appear insane
to the community at large.
Within the last week here is a typical example:
- 5 bottles Buckley's Mixture, which I keep both
at work and at home in convenient locations to
help with my perpetual cough/sore throat, went
from half full (on average) to zero in a 24 hr.
period. By nipping from 5 locations, my
consumption per bottle is very low, and every-
one knows that you can't gulp Buckley's!
- 1 bottle of Wake Ups caffeine tablets went from
1/3 full to zero overnight. This was in my desk
drawer in my locked-at-night computer room.
This too is an item nobody "wolfs" down at one
sitting!
- 1 large (770 ml) bottle of Maalox went from
almost half full to zero overnight, this too
in my desk drawer at work.
In the same period, a complete set of Norton
Anti-Virus diskettes disappeared from the computer
room, locked at night.
"Go figure!"
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET, or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #78 (Eleanor White)
May 5, 1998
Some more recent nasties.
Just after sending out that ALLVIC note listing
tangible, inexpensive, do-able suggestions for
legislatures and police agencies a couple of days
ago, my spooks decided that I wasn't receiving
enough daily punishment.
Here's an update:
- The spooks have stolen my most recent
Norton Anti-Virus rescue diskette.
- The spooks had somehow got hold of the
earlier (Dec. 1997) version, had erased
the files, and got it into the hands of
our graphic artist, who absent-mindedly
copied a slew of graphics files on to it.
It had to be erased first, otherwise
the files would not have fit.
This rescue diskette had a very unique
black, yellow and white commercial
label, and under normal circumstances,
our graphic artist, being very computer
savvy, would never have used such a disk
for transferring files.
At the time the diskette was stolen a
few weeks ago, it had been locked in
the computer room.
- This morning, all the Norton Utilities
series including Anti-virus failed to
run according to their menus and the
manual, no matter how closely the
menus and manual instructions are followed.
I can't create a new rescue disk, because
the creation program simply exits where
it should be doing the create. This
pgm has run successfuly a number of times.
Ditto on different machines.
- Oddest of all, because WIPEDISK doesn't
work (just hangs, doing nothing) I used
SPEEDISK to write nulls into all unused
disk space, after finally getting the
"NYB" virus removed from the boot sector.
(This NYB virus seems to be the spooks
choice because it locks my machine for
an hour starting at precisely 8:00 am
each day - my prime time for doing elec-
tronic publicity work.)
There are now 35 - count 'em - 35 NEW
"unmovable clusters" on my hard drive.
There used to be only 4. Why do those
unmovable clusters suddenly show up? They
were not there last time, about 4 months
ago. I've used SPEEDISK for the last 10
years, and have never seen any prolifer-
ation of these unmovable clusters.
And there's more:
- I use a lot of DB connector crimp pins
(male) and crimp sockets (female) on
both DB connectors and other customized
wiring. I had in stock a few days ago,
roughly 400 of each type.
I discovered that ALL male pins had
completely disappeared. Lots of female
pins still present. So I faxed an order
to the big Canadian supplier Electrosonic.
After a few days of waiting, I phoned them
today and asked them about the order. They
"never received the fax", even though our
machine said it was transmitted OK.
- A "small" loss, but significant because it
happened in my locked-at-night office - I keep
a roll of toilet paper on hand for wiping up
minor spills of various kinds. It was about
half full yesterday. This morning - totally
used up, only the cardboard tube left.
(Not long ago, seven bottles of patent medicine
both at home and at work were emptied by these
interlopers over a period of a few days.)
The spooks often do not hit valuable things,
but they constantly mess with moderately costly
and foremost, convenient things. Stealing and
returning later is very common, and I do fully
expect the male crimp pins to show up after
the order for replacements is here.
For readers new to this, keep in mind that each of
these diary entries is only a single, very limited
snapshot of a 24-hr/day, 365 days/yr programme of
total immersion harassment. Any one item could be
an "accident", but not taken together, and not
when the stories of more than 50 people coincide.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET, or you have failed to
explain any of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #79 (Eleanor White)
May 15, 1998
How do you tell when a spook takes a vacation day?
In my 8 year experience as a victim of involuntary
"testing" of electronic neuro-influence weapons,
I've noticed that in the warmer weather season, the
most aggressive of the harassment crew members do
seem to take the odd day off.
This weekend coming up is a long one, Victoria Day
in Canada. The weather has suddenly turned very
warm and sunny.
I believe the events of the last 24 hours indicate
that the worst member (most aggressive) of the
local harassment crew here in Hamilton, Ontario
has taken a day off. Here's why:
For the first time in almost a year, I was allowed
to sleep most of the night. Usually I'm peppered
with violent limb movements, smaller scale finger
movements, different loud thumps and bangs,
dream interference, aggressive electronic itching
which is not even fully relieved by a cheese grater
I must sleep with, and of course, several appli-
cations of the harassers' electronic caffeine
signal.
The only caffeine signal was applied 30 minutes
before I normally get up. That was about all
there was. I am wholeheartedly grateful for
even one night's break.
There's more at work:
- An important program which my boss has been
anxiously awaiting but which has been inex-
plicably failing almost all day and night
long has suddenly started to work.
I did nothing - left it completely alone.
- A remote label printing system which I
programmed and which has been acting up
inexplicably for the past 3 or 4 weeks
is suddenly working. I did not touch it.
- A new alarm I assembled for a key printer
in our invoicing room stopped mysteriously
malfuctioning. I did not change anything.
The harassers usually choose something important
that I have recently touched to cause it to fail.
It almost never happens that three such systems
suddenly "repair themselves" on their own.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #80 (Eleanor White)
May 16, 1998
Daily re-runs, anyone?
All electronic neuro-influence weapon victims have
had countless instances where the harassers act on
or even narrate, what the victim sees. (The narr-
ation is by way of voice-to-skull transmissions,
or, a member of the harassment crew will approach
the victim on the street and describe the viewed
situation in high detail.)
My own harassers here in Hamilton, Ontario have
begun to use this capability in a very unpleasant
way.
A staple in the "diet" of neuro-influence victims
is to be allowed only enough sleep to not die, and
little more. What this means is that when the
harassers back off their "electronic caffeine"
signal, you are READY to go to sleep!
Over the past couple of months, my torturers have
let me start to fall into natural sleep, and just
when I'm almost there, the force a waking colour,
3-D image of exactly what I was doing during the
just ended day's work. Their favourites are when
I spend the day making up custom cabling and
adapters, and I'm focussed all day long on tiny,
brightly-coloured wires.
This is repugnant to have happen over and over,
and it of course forces you back to a higher
level of consciousness.
The projected mental images are so sharp that I
clearly see and almost "feel" the shiny individ-
ual strands after a wire is stripped. I would
have to say these images are almost better than
the original.
While this isn't terrifying, it goes on for sev-
eral hours and is clearly within the realm of
"torture" in anyone's book.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #81 (Eleanor White)
May 16, 1998
Want PROOF that spooks can read your thoughts?
Here it is.
All neuro-influence weapons victims know that the
harassers will take every possible opportunity to
"mess up" the purchases made by victims.
If an item is bought repeatedly, it will "disappear"
from not one but all the the stores in an area. If
the victim calls the store or chain head office,
some really weird excuses are given, like "Oh.
Walmart carries that, so we stopped." Or, "Oh,
we still carry news magazines" - yeah - the
TABLOIDS.
Well, I may have a topper here. I sometimes will
order topographic maps of places I've been. This
is a very cheap way to "visit" those spots for a
little reminiscing, without having an "accident"
enroute, not to mention the money saved.
I ordered a series of 16 maps of New England
states. Naturally, the order got screwed up, and
I got some wrong maps substitued for the ones
listed on the invoice. That's always expected -
no big deal by now.
However, the incredible part is that before
placing the order, I DID THINK about those par-
ticular maps. I mentioned them to NO ONE, either
before or after placing the order.
When asked for "proof", as far as I'm concerned,
that leaves no doubt at all as to whether the
harassers can read your thoughts and see through
your eyes. All fair minded people cannot possibly
disagree - the INVOICE was correct, and a picking
error could have hit on hundreds of other maps.
Skeptics: You must explain ALL occurrences taken
together as a complete SET or you have explained
NONE of them.
Eleanor White
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E-Weapons Diary #82 (Mikey)
May 21, 1998
My primary care physician was killed in an automobile
accident April 9, 1998. The initial police report
indicated the accident was precipitated by an unknown
driver. I was alarmed because my therapist died of
heart failure in August of 1996 at age 43. Both
persons were familiar with my ordeal and were
sincerely interested in helping me.
In addition to this loss, the periods of sleep
depravation intensified. For the past three weeks,
I've tried to drink my way through the pain. I know
this is not a solution, but its easy. It's difficult
living in two worlds. Trying to maintain a normal
existence in the alternate reality of mind control.
There are times, I believe I'm acting out a script. I
have become a master at concealing my feelings and
functioning during periods of extreme stress.
However, the sleeplessness combined with the targeted
synthetic voices for an extended period is maddening.
This technique works like an emotional trigger. At
these times, I mentally curse and yell at the
manipulators. The need for closure becomes paramount.
I was awaken this morning by the synthetic voices.
As usual, it was the voice of a person employed with
the California Franchise Tax Board (FTB), the agency
I was employed with when this experience began. This
is one of the techniques used whenever I make an
attempt to contact the FTB or other persons
knowledgeable of my FTB connection, i.e. the Los
Angeles attorney I sought regarding employment
harassment. The voices become more oppressive.
Today, I was awakened with "We'll kill you". At this
point in my life, threats of death have no power over
me.
Mikey
Houston, Texas
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E-Weapons Diary #83 (Marion L. Young)
May 23, 1998
Following is an update on the projection of sounds
into my ears. I had a hearing test after the loud
sounds began and after the first severe attack. My
best ear is now my worst. There have been other
major attacks: one night I woke up with both ears
totally numb and the surrounding area numb. My ears
usually feel moderately numb now. The sounds and
tones are mechanical in quality. The vowel sounds
used as descriptions following are not accurate,
words are just inadequate. All of these sounds occur
SIMULTANEOUSLY.
- What I've called a whirring sound. Remindful of
the music, "Flight of the Bumblebee", though these
tones change faster and are extremely irritating in
quality. They start at approximately F#/G , a
vibrating e-e-e-, then slide up to A# or thereabouts
and vibrate, e-e-e-, then slide back down, repeating
up and down. Sometimes the movement is so fast, it
sounds like a counter-clockwise circle.
- A single tone about D or E below the whirring
sounds. Goes on for ver long periods.
- Low sounds, what used to be clearly drumming of
many drums. Now is a dull thudding, I'm sure from
damage, not from the program being changed. Sound
is like continuous traffic or a very full humming,
low, with thuds of what was drumming.
- Constant static surrounding these sounds. Many
frequencies. A hiss, iii, as in hit. This white
noice sometimes gets so loud that it overwhelms
every other sound and then blanks out completely.
There is just a terrific pressure. I know the sound
is still there, but I can hear nothing.
- Other tones and sounds that come and go.
The notes on the scale of each of the sounds above
are different in each ear. They do not harmonize,
but are discordant. The white noise is often louder
in one ear than the other, with the tone louder in
the opposite ear. I made a drawing of this and
after I started showing it to people, the
composition of the above changed somewhat, though
the elements are moe or less the same. The sounds
never stop. The damage to my hearing at every level
of my life is noticeable, dramatic and continuing.
Marion L. Young
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E-Weapons Diary #84 (Marion L. Young)
May 23, 1998
Following is a busy week of street theatre in
Ashland that ends on an ominous note:
Day One: I'm a member of the Unitarian Church here.
Churches attract wierd people. But in the last few
months, the crowd has been enormous. They all look
the same, trashy, broken faces. I was doing some
work at the church and forgot to lock the door after
everyone else left. "Chris", who convinced the
secretary for awhile that he likes to come in and
play the piano and "talk to God", showed up at the
piano with a young woman in tow this time. I could
see them and be seen through a doorway. After a few
minutes, I'd had enough - I was finished anyway -
and started to pack up, intending to tell them I had
to lock up. As soon as they saw what I was doing,
they left. This 5 minute "talk" was a first. They
doubtless thought, mission accomplished, but as I
said, I was finished anyway.
Day two: Parking lot at So. Oregon University. I
am first in line, 4 cars behind me. A space comes
up behind where I am and car-3 darts into it, raming
the car behind him in the process! For once I have
something to yell about, so I charge back and tell
him to move. After some excuses he does. I park,
and as I am walking away, he is standing there,
angry and confused, as the other woman takes his
driver's license info. Poetic justice for once.
Understand, I am followed a lot.
Day three: Staying at a friend's house in a small
town north of Ashland. This is the country. I hike
out into a meadow area behind the house to get away
from the irradiation briefly. There is an aquaduct
at the base of a hill; I find a nice spot to lie
down next to it and get the first sun in weeks. In
l0 minutes two late teenage boys are suddenly
walking by on the other side, the second one toting
a gun pointing at the sky. They shout hellos in
cocky and disparaging tones. Normal kids would have
said nothing. I say hello back. The one with the
gun, his back to me now as they are walking on, says
a sentance I don't quite get, except for the word
"turkey". There are no turkeys to hunt in this
area. In a few minutes the frequencies start out
there.
Day four: At the library using the computer.
Almost finished, I turn around and there is a guy
doing the crazy routine (a favorite). He sits in an
off balance position, head at an extreme angle,
gazing into space. Then changes it - and in one of
his first changes he looks at me with hate. After
that, he keeps the blank stare going, changing
positions, as other people in the library begin to
politely try not to notice him. I leave.
Day five: Still at my friend's house. I go back to
the aquaduct at dusk for some relief from
frequencies. There is a large hill on the other
side that is in shadow as the sun is setting behind
it and to the left. I stand on the mound on the
side for about 5 minutes. Suddenly, there is a gun
shot from up the hill and slightly to the right. A
bullet lands in the water, five feet in front of me.
It was a light calibre rifle sound (the same as the
look of the rifle that the kid had carried two days
before). The water is moving fast, but the ring from
the bullet stays for moments. I can see no one, and
of course I came out alone. I stood there for about
l5 minutes until it got dark. I had no doubt that
if the rifleman intended to hit me, that he could
have. Nevertheless, I was certainly shot AT. Then I
went inside and called the local police who came out
and took a report.
Marion L. Young
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