I couldn't find a reason
To tie my moccasins or to mend these bloody lips
I looked, and you can trust in my hope,
But to my disappointment and against what you've taught me,
it wasn't worth fixing myself this morning.

i am confronted with a daily struggle
falling out of bed and falling deeper into
something that puts me into this well known box
that puts me back inside of this cage
i am well put together but even my
one ounce of composer
is becoming undone
and i hope it doesn't show
but i know you will provoke my reckless nature
it's a matter of time before you leave
it's only a matter of time before this drives you out of my grasp
and out of my mind

you cant fight what you have no control over
so i let it fall out of place because i want to trust that
over time it will fall back together
(but wanting to trust
is just not enough
when you know the consequence
of letting this go)

i am not confined
but you try to lay that one on me regardless
i cannot be refined
i am as smooth as i will get and
one must learn to accept
"rough around the edges"

you can change your amount of exposure to me
but i hold no willingness to hold you together
a level of selfishness will build a wall
between you and i and anyone who has ever tried to care
hell, i have walls between myself and i
and i have never bothered to tear them down

you call on me to keep you together
how am i responsible for a task which i can't even figure out for myself

I think the last two verses could be re-written to fit in with the style

(but wanting to trust
is just not enough
when you know the consequence
of letting this go)


could be elaborated on (a little) or re-written as well